So if any of you have been reading any of my stuff then you know I've been bitching non stop about a girl named Maddy (which as I just found out yesterday is actually spelled Maddie).
You also know I wrote the supposed end to my bitching on that subject, well yea I guess there's more to it. So you can go ahead and just ignore some (all) of that story, and let me start over.
So she came back sometime in April and we hung out a week or so ago for the first time since she left. All in all it was really fun, we walked for 2 and a half hours and had (I hope) a good time. Oh also before I forget I'm 95% sure she's single now, based on that she lives with her mom, and when she was talking about her social life, she failed to mention her (I'm assuming) ex.
So I was like this has to be to good to be true, so I looked up the guy on facebook and his relationship status is listed as single. So yea now I'm flipping shit because, I might actually have a goddamn chance. I've been pining over this girl for as long as I can remember and now she's single!
Bad news, Now that I have not just one thing but two things on the line I am feeling more awkward and less confident around her. I mean do I chance it and ask her out soon and risk the friendship? Is she even looking, do I wait until someone has beaten me to it?
After the walk she posted on my facebook wall, thanking me for the nice time. Which of course in my brain is now translated into "She totally wants me". She says stuff like that often though. So I have no idea.
We went bowling yesterday and had fun Marcel came along as well all in all it was a good day ( I won $225 at the casino). But yea basically my course of action is just to see where it goes, not to force anything just try to hang out more. Before she left I was feeling pretty good, and now I think I have some catching up to do to get to the same comfort zone. Anyway things are looking up (maybe).
