Nikki Nikki Nine Doors

So I'm hoping to see Nikki sometime this weekend, and having been inspired by my courageous friend, over at DAFOY or DFY (desolate and full of yearning [what do you know I had to type it all out anyway]) I think I'll try to make a move. I don't know exactly what yet but something. God the thing I miss most about dating is cuddling, for whatever reason, I just feel the need to hold someone close (hormones DUH).

Anyway, also just remembered that with my grandparents paying for what they believe to be the second half of drivers ed, I just remember I have a tax return coming that will be able to cover the rest. With any luck this might all work out in the end. I still have yet to reschedule that date that was canceled on Monday, I'll text her tomorrow and see if she's free for next Monday.

I had my final job interview today, and it looks like I've got the job, I start on the 15th of March, which is just after when I'll be finishing drivers ed, and  days before my drivers license test. It looks as if everything is falling quite nicely into place. Wish me luck (or don't, it really probably doesn't matter).

P.S.
From now on I think I'll call it DFY.

Blog update

I just added a recommended blog section, to the upper right hand corner of the blog, hopefully that will help increase traffic, to the other blogs. : D

Drivers Ed Update

Ok so it looks like everything on this all falling into place, my parents think that part 2 has yet to be paid for, and my grandparents offered to pay for it. So if I get the money from them, and scrape together another 50$ I can get it started. Plus there's a place nearby that offers 4 day courses, so basically if I can get the money together I might still be able to pull this off. At first the four day course seemed to be impossible because I am hoping to start work full time and I wont be able to go anywhere because I am working full time, but I convinced my parents to let me ask my potential employers if they will let me wait a month before joining, as my drivers test (to get my license) isn't scheduled until March 22. So that extra month will buy me time, meanwhile, I still need to scrape together money to finish this off, I'm hoping a friend will be able to help me, but I'm not counting on it.

Empty Walls (or Updates)

Not a whole lot to report, like I said all my plans revolve around me waiting. Things are pretty quiet right now, kind of half-assedly putting together another aspect of my life to put up, not sure if I should build a better background for Kelsie, or finish explaining suicide girl. More to come.

I was Never Good at Consistency

Apparently I was never good at saying positive things either. What I'm really having trouble with at the moment, is starting a conversation and keeping it going. There seems to be some basic mechanic to the process that I'm missing. The date that was supposed to be today is canceled dude to transportation issues, and hopefully I can reschedule it for another time.

A interesting friend

A friend of mine just started a blog, which is similar in nature to this blog. I recommend taking a look if you haven't already. It looks like he'll be updating semi-daily to daily basis. www.desolateandfullofyearning.blogspot.com

Insert Clever Title Here

What to do, what to do... So it looks like my only option for the time being is to just sit back and wait to see what happens. Which I hate, I usually have a plan of some sort, so this wait and see attitude isn't sitting well with me. All the while still questioning if I should really pursue anything with this girl, who seems to still have strong feelings for her ex boyfriend, and again all I can do is wait... or should I try to find someone who is actually ready to move on with her life, and meet someone new. I don't know, part of me is thinking I just might be making excuses. So after this long train of thought, I have conclusively decided.... that I am lost.