Cause fuck normal, structured blog posts! WHO WANTS READ RANDOM FUCKED UP SHIT!!! *chorus of sounds* but in all seriousness I get bored and write things down when i just wake up/when I'm tired so it might sound retarded but bear with me.
It would honestly be great:
There are times when I look into your eyes, and I want so badly, just for one second to understand your thoughts, your feelings, to know the exact words that will brighten your day. To know just for one second exactly what it is that you want me to do about your petty problems so you'll shut the fuck up and leave me alone. Seriously I'm trying to play my game.
The homeless tirade:
There are times when I'm sitting alone in public, watching them. Watching them talk to each other, walk together. I'll watch for hours, just trying to comprehend the thoughts behind your actions, the rules behind what you say. It's been so long since I've been a part of it all, every now and then a stranger will reach out and offer support but what you people don't seem to realize is, I don't want your help, in my world this is a zoo and I can go home any time I want and you are all stuck this way until you die.
Theory:
The real reason why I think some people go insane is because they try to be too many people. For every friend and family member they behave differently creating dozens of slightly different
persona's, not to mention the mix they become when confronted with two or more people that they know. Only able to be 100% themselves the few times that they are alone. After awhile they lose
themselves and go insane. It's either that Or LSD... yea actually it's probably just the acid.
Dream sequence:
She took my hand as we talked together into the insanity that had become our lives. (I'll work on it later).
Now back to your regularly scheduled events:
So not much has happened on the Maddie front, I asked her out two weekends in a row first weekend for drinking to which she said it was her moms birthday. Which normally I'd be oh ok that sounds reasonable, but I was talking to a coworker and she said that that was a common excuse that she gave to get out of things. So fine she's busy that weekend, but when I asked her out this weekend she said that she was going to visit her grandmother, which really at this point is beginning to sound like she doesn't want to hang out anymore. She said she might be free sometime during this week. The next step is going to be trying to get a hold of her friend to see if she's actually single, (hopefully not so then I can give up on this) and from there see about making a more obvious attempt. Anyway that's my week summary, I'll update whenever another update is deemed necessary.
