"She's a rebel, she's a saint, she's the salt of the earth, and she's dangerous"

So, turns out the person I hit on, is no longer having relationship issues, so there goes that ship. Not that it really mattered. In nine days she will be back, again not like that matters either, just figured it might be relevant because of all of the obsessing.

On that note I should probably mention this girl I "met" on facebook. She popped with 8 mutual friends in the people you may know bar. She was absolutely GORGEOUS. I added her simply so I could ogle her profile pictures. It gets better, turns out she's single. Which is good I guess, but I'm a coward and can't see myself being like, you don't know me but...

She was on one of the dating sites that I joined, and I was absolutely thrilled! So I messaged her, but she never responded. Anyway, I was watching a popular Youtube video "Boxxy", and I realized a trait that I would love to have in a girl. She was sooo cute, all bubbly and happy and what not, it was really refreshing, her smile was infectious. It got depressing though as her most recent video was her saying that she hadn't made a video in awhile, and she probably wouldn't make any more because of things people were saying about her.

But yea I would definitely like someone bordering obnoxiously bubbly, an optimist, someone who always saw the bright side no matter what, always smiling etc etc. It was kind of depressing to realize that this trait is usually bled out of people who have it. Or they go insane.

So yea I should message that girl from facebook. I'm not going to, but I should.

WOOOO Drunken Post

I'm insanely drunk, I also just hit on one of my friends who is going through a rough patch in her relationship, she's kind of a prospect but not really, idk yet, lol, drunk.

"Hard to see in color when you're miserable"

So looks like she (A.K.A. her) is coming back to Kingston. Her 5 month trip nearly completed. I don't think it changes anything, although I'll be able to hang out with her again. I'm not sure that I should. She'll be leaving for college in September anyway. I did like hanging out with her, we had some good conversations. I also remember being kind of obsessed over her. I still kind of want to tell her how I feel about her, but I don't really expect her to just drop everything to date me, nor I do I expect her to feel the same way.

I might take this chance to drift apart, just stop talking her, not necessarily, ignore her, just kind of do my best to put her out of my mind. I'm sure there will be other girls. I'm sure I'll come up with something, I usually do.

"Don't call my friends, they won't know who you are!"

I don't have an excuse for not posting daily other than I am currently lacking material. I'll probably just make these updates semi daily.

I just came back from visiting with my father. It was an awesome visit, I got a laptop and goalie pads (I am an aspiring Ice Hockey goaltender), and when I got home I was informed that we bought a new flat screen TV, so I get to have the the old one put in my room, which now makes that two TVs in my room. All in all it was a pretty good week.

Drivers ed is coming apart at the seams. turns out the program is only the class portion, whilst I need both portions, my best and so far main plan is to see if I can just pay for the driving portion of the lessons, and not take them (i.e. bribe or bullshit my way out). After that I have no Idea what I am going to do, there's always the mental breakdown approach, but that would get too messy too quickly, I'd rather avoid that and save it for something worthwhile.


I still am having trouble sleeping at night, I haven't heard from, or sent any messages to Nikki, nor Miranda. Nikki because she's insane, Miranda because I left my cell phone at my dads. Other than that life has been uneventful.

I had the strangest dream the other night, I was working at my new job, and it was my lunch break so I went over to a local coffee shop, and decided I needed to use the washroom. When I went in, there were to girls who were my age just sitting there and smoking pot. I was extremely confused but I rolled with it. One came over and offered me sex, to which I hesitated and then replied "Fuck yea!", then in my dream I blacked out, which is fucked up because its a dream. When I "woke up" in my dream the girl was there, I had vague memories of some party that had happened the night before, loud music, drunken fun all that good stuff. The last thing I remember before I woke up was her giving me her phone number. (1)613-453-(?)899 I don't know the one number but I'm pretty sure it was a 3. I am really tempted to text this number as it is from my town, and is a cell phone number. Nevertheless I'm sure it was just a dream. 

"You're coming off kinda contrived and pretentious, you're not saying anything we havent heard before"

Well I suddenly like  my decision to forget about Nikki. As it turns out (and as I've always suspected) she's full of shit. I received a message from her on facebook today from her to me and a bunch of other guys saying that she was apologizing for causing pain, she attributed it to the first step in an addiction program. When someone asked what she was addicted to she said: Weed, alcohol and something else.


Which to me read as: Bullshit (weed is not physically addictive), alcohol (probably bullshit), and I haven't made up my story that far yet. I looked up the cities of where the guys were from, all from out of her area, which means she  only met them via the online dating site, because her family doesn't own a car. Furthermore none of her family were included in a message that is:
1: Always done in person, or at the very least over the phone
2: Reserved for close family and friends not people you  barely know.


So on the plus side, at least I won't have to deal with a manipulative, attention seeking bitch, maybe I'll keep trying for that girl Miranda (I met her on the same site). Either way things are good.