"I think therefore I suffer"

So I am now regretting never trying harder with Natalie in high school, could spent that time building something, instead didn't. This still bothers me, I can all but still feel her fingers tracing circles on my chest.

Hockey is progressing well, I am playing 5 days a week and am usually super tired come Friday and despite some setbacks as of recently, such as having to relearn some basic positioning and overcoming a fear of the puck, I think I am really making a lot of progress. I can skate a whole game now, I don't need a rest every 5 minutes, and usually play for the whole 2 hours if they let us. I am interested to see how well I would do at the beep test now.

I got my skates profiled today I'm hoping this will be a game changer, I had some issues with movement to my glove side, and the guy says this should help.

As for the puck shyness I was doing well until I caught a slap shot to my arm near my elbow, it left a bump and a blood blister, at the time I couldn't hold on to my stick for a minute or so. I have to keep focusing on watching the puck and staying square to the shooter.

This usually works out fine until I get the occasional vivid flashback and I have to focus on the situation at hand, I'm really hoping this goes away soon, I miss sleep.